Lately, incase you can't tell I have been feeling so absolutely insecure about everything. I don't know why, or what sparked it, but I have been. I feel insecure around Erik, around his family, in my work, in school - in everything. I really can't stand feeling this way, in fact I hate it.
I get so mad at myself lately, any little mess up, any little bump in the road and I find myself angry. I'm not sure where all these insecurites are coming from, and why now they are being uglier than before - but it's almost like a daily battle.
Sigh... I don't know if it's the 'after christmas' season thats making me feel this way or what it is. But I don't like it one bit, I want my happy go-lucky goofy self back.
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