Saturday, July 16, 2011

One day..

Tomorrow we meet with the priest and I am really hoping that we can walk away from our meeting with some guidance, as well as permission to be married. I've tried very hard, today to not think about anything regarding the wedding since it just seems to put me in a sour mood lately. I've done a pretty good job for the most part.

I just hope, that my relationship with Erik's family can and will be a good one. I want to be able to not have gut wrenching knots, and stomach flip flops everytime I bring up that he needs to call home. I feel like since everything that has happened, that I won't get that. I want to be able to think that I have gained three sisters, and not three girls who hate me, I want to be able to be close with Erik's mom - to be able to call her when he is deployed and talk, to be able to have a second mom, another opinion. Whether or not that is going to happen.. god only knows. I just want them to have Erik's happiness as much of a priority to them as it is to me. I want them to put our happiness as a priority, to think of us, to take a step back and realize that our time together is always limited.

I just want a great relationship with my 'in laws'. And honestly, I'm really scared that won't happen. Not for my sake, but for Erik's.

All I know, is I am drained, and emotionally exhausted. I just want everything to be good again. I want everyone to be happy with us and for us.

1 comment:

  1. R and I dated for over 3 years before we got married, and his parents hated that we did. ( his mom believes in dating 10 thousand people and i was his only girlfriend and him my bf) it took a good whole year after we were married before i became comfortable with his family and before they seemed to accept me. So coming from experience- if things don't click with his family right away honestly don't worry. Your first year of marriage is about you and him. That time needs to be spent you both learning and not worrying about his family. So take a deep breath and know that everything WILL be okay in the end. :-) Sorry for my book haha