2014

The famous New Year resolution list, right? Not from this girl, I do have some goals that I am hoping to obtain this year. I really want to sit down and do a bucket list for the year with my husband for our family, now that the boys are older and on whole milk, I think it will be much easier to do things. At least, I'm really hoping it will be. I'm hoping to make this year a great year, and making it a year for change. This is what I'm hoping going to change this year:

• My relationship with food. I am going to make it better than what it has been. All my life it has been a constant battle of limiting, binging, limiting, removing. Not any longer. Granted this is more of a lifestyle change, but, I need to be a better role model with this for my kids, and for myself. I want to focus on making more well rounded, healthier, fresher meals for my family. Not bird food. It has to be filling, yummy, and good for us. I refuse to limit myself to food any longer. I'm not going to binge on chocolate, but I'm not eliminating it either.
• My relationship with myself. I want to fall in love with myself. Sure, it may sound super vain. But I really want to love myself, my appearance, my quirks. I will make time for myself each day. Whether its a glass of wine or a home DIY pedicure. I deserve to reward myself and spoil myself. I work hard and I should be rewarded for that.
• To be more active, healthy, and fit. I know, I know it is on everyone's list, but this is something that is and always has been close to my heart. I was so fit and active before and I haven't been lately. I'm also hoping that by doing this it will help me wean off of my PPD medications and help the PPD get lost!
• My relationship with God. I want to live closer to His word and I want to live a more Holy lifestyle. I know there will be instances where I fall short, I know there will be not so stellar moments. But its where my heart is. I want to be better.
• My relationship with my husband. Pretty self explanatory, but I want to really work on being a better wife, and a better friend towards Erik.
• I want our family to be more active in general, hiking, walking, adventures things like that. Being outdoors more.
• I will not allow myself to stress over work and my hours. I will do my best and that's all I can do. I will accept this and move onward
• I will decide on a career path to take.

As for our bucket list, that's going to be a fun project. I know we have a bit of traveling to do so we'll see where it gets us! As for now going to Disney is the only item on the list.

What do you want to do in 2014? What types of changes are you wanting to make? What is on your  bucket list?

It's a life style change

For those of you who don't know, I've been trying to really change my food life, and well my health life too. This started back in November or so, and frankly I've come a pretty long ways in my book. When I started off the year in 2011 I weighed 154lbs. Embarrassing and fatter than a cow in my book. At my wedding on March 3rd I weighed 120 lbs. And I was happy.

I always do really well, and then just kind of slack off. But, I'm for the most part sticking with it. I've done a good job of incorporating more healthy and fresh food into my life versus processed. I never was a big soda person, but that's completely cut out of my life. Energy drinks are a water based Crystal Light packet - with only 60 mg of Caffeine in it. I eat a ton of greek yogurt, which I love. Grapefruit, celery, whole grain food. I also take my Prenatal vitamin that is food based, and has my daily serving of certain vitamins/minerals that make me crave chocolate. Which helps.

I do pretty well with food choices. Because I feel better when I eat right, and eat smart. I feel good. Once I am into a good routine I am good about working out. But, my routine slacked after the wedding. I at least went to the gym on our cruise some but it's not been spectacular. Maybe twice a week I make it to the gym or do a workout. This is where I need to get better. So I'm hoping that by blogging about it, will help keep me committed.

I've noticed also, that when I am eating right and working out, my anorexia thoughts are almost completely gone, the thoughts of "I am a COW", "Oh my gosh, do not take off my shirt, I am too fat", "How can you even think you're beautiful at all, just look in the mirror" No - I'm really not taking this to an extreme, this is really what goes on in my head. So I'm really going to make a habit to stay active, and keep up with this new lifestyle. Because for the first time in a longggg time I am happy with myself and my body.

So here it is my goal, my measurements and my current weight. I plan on updating this weekly. I don't plan on doing pictures, because frankly I don't feel comfortable. But.. I will take a few and keep them and when I feel comfortable I will share them.
My Goal - Maintain exercise. Eat healthy, work out daily.
Form of workout: Jillian Micheals 30 day Shred (she's killer), and NY and Co Ballet Workout 1 & 2. Occasional gym sesh.

Measurements:
Upper Thigh (fattest part)- 21"
Lower Thigh (above knee) - 17"
Upper Arm (before arm pit) - 11"
Hips: 37"
Waist: 29"
Weight: 127 lbs.

So.. we'll see how I am doing next Tuesday.